Trust me, this has taken a LOT of guts to reveal my large and floppy body to the world. Revealing the reality of a 244 lb body ravaged by 3 large babies and 20 years of “not giving a damn” isn’t a pretty site. But whatever you think of me, know that I’m a good and kind person, I won’t judge you and I’d try not to hurt you.
THIS is necessary for me to do as part of my acceptance of the obesity problem I have. An obese person is usually obese for a reason and accepting what we have done to our bodies and no longer hating ourselves as a person for doing it, is part of the healing process. I don’t like looking at my body in the mirror but I am making myself do so to realize that this is just skin and flesh and nothing more. My outside isn’t me…. it’s growing on me, it’s attached to me but you can’t judge me or really know me by the way I look..
Today I feel strong, I did speed walking at the track, I skipped, I did some pilates with a resistance band and for the first time in 20 years I jogged around the garden and tonight my plate was filled with delicious organic vegetables.
A little later on I will enjoy some cocoa from my 1940s cupboard and add it to my almond milk ( a substitute for regular milk as I am vegan), and watch an hour or two of something motivational.
Losing weight and becoming happy and healthy is a long journey. You have to slay demons, kill plateaus, wipe away the sweat and tears and keep climbing that mountain.
I’m halfway up my mountain and I refuse to look back!
C xxxx
