I’ve been away since Friday visiting a friend. Had an awesome weekend and the suspense has been killing me since I returned yesterday to see if the scales showed a weight loss…. they did!

A weekly weight loss of 4 lbs so I’m now 19 stone and 4 lbs (12 lbs off in two weeks).

I celebrated this morning with a few spoonfuls of beans on two slices of toast (no margarine) and did a little jig.

It’s good to be smiling again 🙂

C xxxxxxx

PS: More recipes to come, have 2 or 3 to put up.  Apologize for my tardiness. Hope everyone is doing well xxxxxx

The last couple of weeks have been interesting and the last week or so amazing…

I’m motivated, happy and definitely in control of my eating.

Yesterday morning I weighed in at 19 st 8 lbs (274 lbs) so I lost 8 lbs in a week!! YES in a week!

I’m GOING FOR IT!

Every day I stuck rigidly to rationing except one day where I went to my friend Bertie’s birthday at her house where she cooked a totally delicious meal consisting of a vegan mile-high pie and a vegan chocolate cheesecake (that had courgettes in it)…oh and I drank champagne and home brew beer….BUT I was feeling happy and there was no way I could be a kill-joy and refuse such delicious (and healthy) food.

Losing weight and being motivated has to come from within BUT having friends that totally believe in your capabilities and don’t judge you on your current weight, and make you feel good about yourself, really, really helps (and the comments that you leave I read over and over…)

I’ve met someone here in the Midlands…… it’s very early days so I’m keeping this very close to my chest (and I won’t give away anymore than that to anyone!). Regardless, it doesn’t matter. He’s a beautifully burly, confident, chatty, witty,  lovely man, who pushes my buttons, and we’ve become good friends. He’s encouraged me every day without fail and he’s making me feel better about myself.

Yes it’s been an interesting week but at the moment I feel I can achieve anything…

C xxxxx

I’ve always avoided the side photos, I carry all my weight out front looking like I’m 9 months pregnant. I have to face my demons and show you…

For those who have just fallen upon my blog my story is of a woman who eats for comfort, I love food, everything about it, it excites me but it’s been killing me..

At my heaviest I’ve been 345 lbs ( 24 st 9 lbs) and in October 2012 I weighed in at 219 lbs (15 st 9 lbs) having lost 80 lbs ( 5 st 10 lbs) in one year, living every day on wartime rations, re-creating an authentic recipe for every 1 lb I lost along the way.

Towards the end of 2012 many things came to try us. I couldn’t work in Canada (long story) where we were living at the time and suddenly we were thrown into trying to survive in a country without money or healthcare because we needed to remain for emotional reasons (the children’s father and my ex-husband had terminal colon/lung/liver cancer). We fought to stay until David passed away in April, then sold our house for half it’s value so we could return to England, pay off our debts and start again.

We returned to the UK 3 months ago with 22 small boxes, that was our life, all of it..

The stress of the past year has taken it’s toll, I’ve been battling with my food addiction and although generally eating quite healthily (I’m also vegan and eat LOADS of veggies) I’ve eaten too much of the things I should be limiting. My weight has been creeping back on, especially these past 4 or 5 months.

My 1940s style, little red dress which will fit me one day..

I’ve weighed in this morning and I weigh 282 lbs (20 st 2 lbs) so you can see a lot of weight has crept back on.

Keeping weight off (and losing it) needs consistent hard work and perseverance. I let my daily exercising fall by the wayside and I began to eat second platefuls of all the delicious 1940s meals I’ve been cooking, it’s comforting you see…

I bought a little red 1940s style dress not so long ago, a dress I intend to fit into one day. I can squeeze myself into it but its busting at the seams. It shows off all my bulges, my obesity so I have decided that every time I lose 1 stone, I’ll take a photo wearing the dress with the hope that several months from now it will fit me and I’ll look good in it (and even wear high-heeled shoes)

My intentions are to lose 100 lbs in 1 year starting today and to feel beautiful on the outside as well as the inside.

Thank you for being here through all my ups and downs, I do so appreciate it.

“To succeed, one must rise up from every fall and persevere…”

C xxxxx

I have my little red dress hanging on my wall in my bedroom so its the first thing I see in the morning and last thing at night..

I have lots to post but I’ve been a bit quiet, initially because we all came down with a nasty cold virus thing that had us all coughing like crazy (and weeks later we still have remnants), but also my parents visited and it was the first time I had seen them in 9 years! Needless to say this was all I could think of! It was am emotional time for me but they both looked GREAT!

Joblessness has also been preoccupying my mind and worrying me with my tenancy renewal looming up by the end of November. Last thing I want to do is have to move so I’m trying my hardest to find work that will support my family and I. The kids are applying for jobs too. In our favour is the fact that there are more temporary Christmas jobs popping up so I’m sure something will happen soon.

I’ve been busy continuing to clear up the garden and I think come next summer (keeping fingers crossed we’ll still be here) the garden will look really nice.

BBC Radio Nottingham called me back to be part of a Monday morning breakfast show talking about news over the weekend with another guest too. It was scary but great experience and lots of fun. They have asked to call me again in a months time so I hope so..

I haven’t yet jumped on the scales, I’m scared too but I need to get this weight back off so will do on Monday. I’m going to work out a daily walking schedule, find a route through the houses around the back where it’s off the main road. I walk 3 or 4 times a week to the shops at the moment but it’s not enough!

The 1940s Supper Club idea is still very much in my mind. I’ve been reading the book, over and over that Cookaholic Kate sent me and I’m trying to find a way forward on that to make it happen.  Cooking for 6 while Mum and Dad were here (in the Supper Club it would probably be 12) gave me lots of pointers as to what I am lacking, what I need, how much washing up, how much space is needed, how much more seating is needed etc. I have a need for more tables and chairs and anything above 10-12 would not be able to be accommodated in the dining room. In addition I need to work out what is available at Arnold Community Centre if there happened to be an issue with having it at my house. I’ll be doing my ‘Food Handling’ course online and I do need to have my kitchen inspected. It’s a prudent thing to do and it also means that in the future I could make food products to sell..

Busy, busy

C xxxx