I’ve always avoided the side photos, I carry all my weight out front looking like I’m 9 months pregnant. I have to face my demons and show you…
For those who have just fallen upon my blog my story is of a woman who eats for comfort, I love food, everything about it, it excites me but it’s been killing me..
At my heaviest I’ve been 345 lbs ( 24 st 9 lbs) and in October 2012 I weighed in at 219 lbs (15 st 9 lbs) having lost 80 lbs ( 5 st 10 lbs) in one year, living every day on wartime rations, re-creating an authentic recipe for every 1 lb I lost along the way.
Towards the end of 2012 many things came to try us. I couldn’t work in Canada (long story) where we were living at the time and suddenly we were thrown into trying to survive in a country without money or healthcare because we needed to remain for emotional reasons (the children’s father and my ex-husband had terminal colon/lung/liver cancer). We fought to stay until David passed away in April, then sold our house for half it’s value so we could return to England, pay off our debts and start again.
We returned to the UK 3 months ago with 22 small boxes, that was our life, all of it..
The stress of the past year has taken it’s toll, I’ve been battling with my food addiction and although generally eating quite healthily (I’m also vegan and eat LOADS of veggies) I’ve eaten too much of the things I should be limiting. My weight has been creeping back on, especially these past 4 or 5 months.
My 1940s style, little red dress which will fit me one day..
I’ve weighed in this morning and I weigh 282 lbs (20 st 2 lbs) so you can see a lot of weight has crept back on.
Keeping weight off (and losing it) needs consistent hard work and perseverance. I let my daily exercising fall by the wayside and I began to eat second platefuls of all the delicious 1940s meals I’ve been cooking, it’s comforting you see…
I bought a little red 1940s style dress not so long ago, a dress I intend to fit into one day. I can squeeze myself into it but its busting at the seams. It shows off all my bulges, my obesity so I have decided that every time I lose 1 stone, I’ll take a photo wearing the dress with the hope that several months from now it will fit me and I’ll look good in it (and even wear high-heeled shoes)
My intentions are to lose 100 lbs in 1 year starting today and to feel beautiful on the outside as well as the inside.
Thank you for being here through all my ups and downs, I do so appreciate it.
“To succeed, one must rise up from every fall and persevere…”
I have my little red dress hanging on my wall in my bedroom so its the first thing I see in the morning and last thing at night..