This morning I am 69 lbs away from dropping below 200 lbs. Down 28 lbs since January and down 77 lbs from my heaviest.
Today I discovered that there were now clothes in my wardrobe that were getting too loose. I refuse to ever fit back into them so I hastily put them up for sale on eBay. This process, to me, is all part of my own personal metamorphosis. Those clothes represent the big me, I want to change them as I shrink, banish them. I’ve kept by a couple of items. One white striped blouse that absolutely now swamps me. When I bought it a year ago, I didn’t wear it as it was a little too tight around the bust and it was gaping…. it felt so strange to think that just 28 lbs had made such a difference. TODAY was the first time I began to notice that there wasn’t as much of me as there used to be. Oh how thrilling that was!
HOW MUCH DO I WANT TO SUCCEED RIGHT NOW?
More than anything. But it has to be that way to succeed at something. I’m giving this my all. My brother recently bought me a Fitbit. I currently live by my Fitbit. It motivates me to keep moving, to drink more water, climb more stairs, give my heart a cardio workout, eat enough even. A FREE weekend pass to Pure Gym in Nottingham dropped into my e-mail box the other day. I immediately took advantage of using this knowing that the weather would hinder taking exercise outside. Every morning I was in the gym for 7:30 am…I WANT TO SUCCEED SO BADLY!
I can’t bear the thought of returning to the crippling back pain I would experience (as I was approaching 300 lbs in weight) when trying to walk any distance. I can’t believe now how many years I lived with that on and off and never thought I was important enough to make THAT the most important thing to succeed at in my life.
But I’m doing that now.
The best present I can give myself this year will be the gift of health. I will jump on the scales on Christmas Day and it WILL be under 200 lbs.